Okay I'm about to be honest. When we found out we were pregnant, I prayed that God would give me a boy. I grew up in a family full of girls. Seriously, 3 older sisters, and 6 nieces. Girls everywhere. Now I absolutly love my sisters and all my nieces are so sweet, but since I started thinking about being a mother I wanted my firstborn, if not all my children to be boys. I'm not what you would call a girly girl, although I'm not a tomboy. I don't wear heels, I only wear basic makeup, and jeans and a t shirt are my clothes of choice. Anyway, I'll be real right now, and you have to promise not to think I'm a terrible mother, but when we found out it was two girls in there, I was a touch disappointed. I still knew I would love these girls with my whole heart but part of me was hopping they would say "Hold on, no it looks like boys." I even felt that our families were disappointed that there were no boys, although Morgan convinced me that was all in my head. Since that day I've come to be so excited to have two daughters. I've got things I'm scared of, since I'm a girl and know what they are like. But there are some things that will be so special because they are girls. Here's a list....because I love list.
What I'm scared of:
.........I'm absolutly scared of the amount of diapers we will go through. I know this doesn't have to do with their gender. But wouldn't you be scared of the twin diaper ratio?
.........I'm worried about bonding with two babies at once. I've heard that the bond a mother has with her brand new baby is amazing. But how do you love two brand new babies with all your heart? I know I will, but it still worries me at times.
........Oh the drama! Girls are drama queens. Some are worse then others, but all girls have there dramatic times. And two the same age, going through the same changes. Yikes!
.........I'm so not looking forward to 13 years from now. Two girls going through middle school, periods, and self-esteem at the same time? Two girls that think I'm an idiot no matter what I say. I already covet your prayers for that time.
What I cannot wait for:
........I cannot wait to see two precious daddy's girls. Morgan is so much like his father, and one thing I love about Dave is how sweet and loving he is towards his girls. He's a man who knows how to be a daddy to girls. I forsee Morgan being wrapped around two little glitter pained fingers.
........I get to help two girls figure out what it is to fall in love. I get to help them figure out how to be a successful women in this world. I get to help plan and watch my daughters prepare to be a wife and mother themselves.
.......These girls will not only have sisters, but they will have a best friend. I pray these girls will always be close and best friends. I can't wait to hear them pretending in their bedroom, go to the mall together when their teenagers, and watch them be each others maid of honors at their weddings.
.......There is a relationship that mothers and daughters have that can't be replaced. I look forward to being there mother and raising them, but I hope one day when they are women we will be friends.
I'm so in love with these girls already.
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