Friday, August 6, 2010

Another year almost over

August is birthday month. We just booked a hotel in Destin to spend my birthday at the beach. I am definitly in need of a vacation. We've been under a lot of stress this past month with selling the Jeep and fixing the A/C. A few days off is very needed.

I've not really been looking forward to turning 27. I guess it will mean I'm in my late 20's. But I have to say that I'm ready to put 26 behind me. This has been one hard year. Sometimes it's hard to believe what all can happen within the course of a year. We had some good things happen to us for sure, like buying our first home and celebrating our first anniversary. But 26 held a lot of pain for us as well. I'm slowly healing from our heartbreak of lossing our baby, something I never dreamed would happen. And I have confidence that the time will come when God will finally make me a mom, my life long dream.

I've definitly drawn closer to God because of all of this. I've found that Scripture and prayer can give me hope when I seem to lose mine (funny huh, who would of thought it?) I heard a song last night while I was driving home that had me full of tears, I thought I might drive off the road. It's a song from Jars of Clay(old school) Called God Will Lift Up Your Head, I shortened the lyrics a bit,

Give to the wind your fear
Hope and be undismayed
God hears your sighs and counts your tears
God will lift up your head

Leave to His sovereign way
To choose and to command
Then shall we wandering on His way
Know how wise and how strong is His hand

Through waves and clouds and storms,
He gently clears the way
Wait because in His time, so shall this night
Soon end in joy.