What You've Missed

So while we were keeping our "little" secret this past couple months there has been a lot going on with me. Here's a list of the first trimester pregnancy stuff I've been going through.

1. Number one that any expecting mom can tell you, pregnancy makes you tired. Now pregnancy with twins....exhausted!! I would feel like sleeping all day and all night so much. My normal bed time has been 9 or 9:30 with 8:30 being a bed time here and there. My energy has come back a little, but 9:30 you still find me in bed.

2. A lot of people may hate me for this, but I've not had any sickness. Every once in a while if it was close to meal time I might feel queasy but a few crackers and I was okay. I'm really thankful because my doctor scared me into thinking twins would mean really mad morning sickness.

3.Cravings! At first I didn't really crave anything, but around 8 weeks I started to really get them. Number one for me is red meat. Sometimes I feel like if I don't have some form of cow I'll go insane. Just last night Morgan grilled us some steaks, and I swear I've never been more happy :) Also major craving has been OJ. I could drink it at every meal, including last night with my steak. I've also could put hot sauce on about everything. The spicier the better!!

4. Aversions. Don't come near me with scrambled eggs. Ugh, just thinking about them turns my stomach. Also sweets, especially chocolate, does not interest me at all. Which is brand new to me.

5. Random things: My nails grow super fast. I cry at everything! I get really crabby which even I have to admit. And I forget everything. I even had to look up my zip code when addressing a letter. Pregnant brain is a real thing.

That's a little bit of the things that have been going on. I enjoy looking up all the crazy old wives tales to try and figure out what these kids are, but having two I'm not sure what the old wives predictions would be.

Double the Fun

So if you were at our church this morning this blog is a repeat of what I said, but I hope you still take a little time to read it. A lot of you reading this will probably remember about our miscarriage in April. I've written about it a couple of times. After we had our loss it took a while for me to grieve and recover from our loss. It seemed that every time I got on Facebook, someone else was announcing their pregnancy. I dealt a lot with jealousy and doubt. It got to a point that I was so focused on us getting pregnant again that each month I got more and more down. Morgan basically had to stop me one day and just say "Liz, relax! It will happen when God wants it to happen. Enjoy this time we have together." I listened to him, and also started getting into the Scripture.

Each morning I would read and pray. I began praying to get pregnant, but then I started praying that I could just see what God wanted from our life. I started to feel closer to God than I have in a long time. When I would spend that time with Him I would start to feel Him speak to me saying to just trust Him and He would work it out for us.

Not much longer it seemed We finally got our positive pregnancy test. I was excited, but scared at the same time. You see what a lot of you don't know is that we had a first miscarriage in December, after only a week of knowing we were pregnant. So I was really worried about having a third miscarriage. But we made it to 8 weeks when we had our first ultrasound.

Now this is where I find God kind of having a little fun with us. You see the tech started the ultrasound and said "Oh I see two flickering heartbeats, looks like twins!" I sat up and pretty much said WHAT! Morgan was just chuckling in the corner. Total surprise, but total blessing. As we left the office and were trying to wrap our brain around twins, Morgan summed it up perfectly. He said, "Liz, you know I think God remembered how much we hurt from our losses and so He is giving us two babies!" We are so excited. Very nervous but can't wait! We are due in May, and I'll be 13 weeks on Tuesday. So far I've had a very easy pregnancy. I just hope it stays going so well. I'll try to post more on my blog to keep you updated on our progress.